Right. I shall endeavor to stop worrying about... worrying. Did she. She later told me she didn't mean it, but she was pissed at the time, so... yeah.
Good. Yes. Because nothing's changed between us, Mike. Nothing specifically.
But... we're more different than I thought. I'm sorry. I'm not saying I want to- end things, Mike- please I just have to- get used to it, is all. I will. I promise you, I will.
Yeah, we were all a mite pissed last night. Reckon I was the only one of the lot to use a sobering charm, though. She didn't say anything off, did she?
...I didn't know you were there. Pansy only mentioned Tony. Most of what she said was- off, but I reckon I understood her meaning, as she's said much of it to me whilst sober.
Right.
I don't... know. I know you want me to- take the risk. And maybe I should, Mike, maybe I- just should.
But then- when I found out about you and Pansy. When I realised that- we- view- shagging- differently. I don't know where our relationship has been heading, but we've talked about- sleeping together before and bloody hell, why am I being so bold.
I'm just trying to say that I'm trying to take the risk of being- romantic with you when we view such acts so- differently.
Bloody hell. Would you happen to have some alcohol left over
Maybe because there's nowhere else where I can take risks like this yet feel safe. Just with you.
Maybe because I care about you, and am trying my best to make you happy.
Maybe because I'm starting to realise how ridiculously short and- senseless, even- this life can be, what with Death Eaters terrorising us at every moment.
Maybe because I'm trying to grow as a person. And I understand that doesn't come without hardship.
Maybe because I'm starting to realise that my parents' hold on me has been a hindrance all along. And I'm just... trying to break free.
Maybe I'm just so bloody damned sick of my PADMA LOGIC I could just scream. All I want anymore is you. Just you. Merlin.
And this- this doesn't even make any bloody sense anymore.
I know I am, Ms Patil. It's irresistible, admit it.
Was hoping you'd admit it again.
See, I haven't taken a fancy to sitting around Marietta's flat all day and the antsy bloke I am, I've a thing or two I can't wait any longer to tell you in person. Reckon I could steal you away for a bit?
Admit that you need to work on your NEWT revisions and I might consider it.
And why should I do such a thing?
It's not stealing if I come willingly, Mike. Reckon... reckon I could lie tell my parents Marietta is giving me advise on NEWTs, as she performed so well, after all... Merlin. And no rowing this time?
You do have aspirations, Mikey. You want me to admit something to you, yes?
Why, Mike. Using my love for you as a weapon against me? *pouts*
If by some, you mean my entire family and a good portion of my friends, then... yes, I reckon you've a point. ;-P Luckily, I don't consider myself amongst that group. I am quite in control of my own mind, Mr Corner. Oh?
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Right. I shall endeavor to stop worrying about... worrying. Did she. She later told me she didn't mean it, but she was pissed at the time, so... yeah.
Good. Yes. Because nothing's changed between us, Mike. Nothing specifically.
But... we're more different than I thought. I'm sorry. I'm not saying I want to- end things, Mike-
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Brilliant plan, that.
Yeah, we were all a mite pissed last night. Reckon I was the only one of the lot to use a sobering charm, though. She didn't say anything off, did she?
Right.
How do you plan on accomplishing that?
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I aim to please, of course.
...I didn't know you were there. Pansy only mentioned Tony. Most of what she said was- off, but I reckon I understood her meaning, as she's said much of it to me whilst sober.
Right.
I don't... know. I know you want me to- take the risk. And maybe I should, Mike, maybe I- just should.
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...what?
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But then- when I found out about you and Pansy. When I realised that- we- view- shagging- differently. I don't know where our relationship has been heading, but we've talked about- sleeping together before and bloody hell, why am I being so bold.
I'm just trying to say that I'm trying to take the risk of being- romantic with you when we view such acts so- differently.
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Right.
I don't want you taking any risks if you're not ready. Never expected you to.
If it's that difficult for you, I don't understand why you're trying at all.
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Maybe because there's nowhere else where I can take risks like this yet feel safe. Just with you.
Maybe because I care about you, and am trying my best to make you happy.
Maybe because I'm starting to realise how ridiculously short and- senseless, even- this life can be, what with Death Eaters terrorising us at every moment.
Maybe because I'm trying to grow as a person. And I understand that doesn't come without hardship.
Maybe because I'm starting to realise that my parents' hold on me has been a hindrance all along. And I'm just... trying to break free.
Maybe I'm just so bloody damned sick of my PADMA LOGIC I could just scream. All I want anymore is you. Just you. Merlin.
And this- this doesn't even make any bloody sense anymore.
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You love me? You sure?
Right. Now I feel a right arse for earlier.
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I've been telling you for months, actually. Whilst you were pissed or asleep.
I'm as sure of that as I've been of anything, Mike.
So do I. And vulnerable and exhausted. Yet... hopeful too. I want to feel hopeful.
Because I trust you.
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I've been wanting to say that a while here. A long while. And it feels bloody good to say it finally, relief even.
Scares me, though.
I've never wanted anyone as much as I want you. That scares me. You scare me.
I've never wanted to be more bloody terrified.
I love you.
Bloody Merlin, I wish I could tell you in person. I wish I could show you in person.
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I've been staring at this for awhile. I'm... speechless. I'm bloody speechless.
I love you.
I want to be with you.
Mike.
...I want to... be with you.
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Reckon I'm the one who's speechless now.
You sure? If you're not, no worries. I love you. But if you are, that's - that's brilliant, that is.
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Can't ruddy explain beyond that. I love you. Reckon that's all I need to understand.
I think... I think I'm ready.
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You free now?
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Now?Where are you?no subject
I could meet you somewhere if you like. Don't know if you're interested in desert or the like. Reckon we need time to revise a bit, yeah?
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You are a horrid and incorrigible young boy, have I told you this?
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And you are a tease, Miss Prefect.
What are you doing tomorrow?
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I do believe I have already admitted so much to you.
Languishing in my desire to see you, why?
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Was hoping you'd admit it again.
See, I haven't taken a fancy to sitting around Marietta's flat all day and the antsy bloke I am, I've a thing or two I can't wait any longer to tell you in person. Reckon I could steal you away for a bit?
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And why should I do such a thing?
It's not stealing if I come willingly, Mike. Reckon... reckon I could
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Because you love me.
I'm disappointed, Padma. Resorting to lying? Reckon some would call me a poor influence. Rowing's not what I had in mind, no.
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Why, Mike. Using my love for you as a weapon against me? *pouts*
If by some, you mean my entire family and a good portion of my friends, then... yes, I reckon you've a point. ;-P Luckily, I don't consider myself amongst that group. I am quite in control of my own mind, Mr Corner. Oh?
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