Maybe because there's nowhere else where I can take risks like this yet feel safe. Just with you.
Maybe because I care about you, and am trying my best to make you happy.
Maybe because I'm starting to realise how ridiculously short and- senseless, even- this life can be, what with Death Eaters terrorising us at every moment.
Maybe because I'm trying to grow as a person. And I understand that doesn't come without hardship.
Maybe because I'm starting to realise that my parents' hold on me has been a hindrance all along. And I'm just... trying to break free.
Maybe I'm just so bloody damned sick of my PADMA LOGIC I could just scream. All I want anymore is you. Just you. Merlin.
And this- this doesn't even make any bloody sense anymore.
I know I am, Ms Patil. It's irresistible, admit it.
Was hoping you'd admit it again.
See, I haven't taken a fancy to sitting around Marietta's flat all day and the antsy bloke I am, I've a thing or two I can't wait any longer to tell you in person. Reckon I could steal you away for a bit?
Admit that you need to work on your NEWT revisions and I might consider it.
And why should I do such a thing?
It's not stealing if I come willingly, Mike. Reckon... reckon I could lie tell my parents Marietta is giving me advise on NEWTs, as she performed so well, after all... Merlin. And no rowing this time?
You do have aspirations, Mikey. You want me to admit something to you, yes?
Why, Mike. Using my love for you as a weapon against me? *pouts*
If by some, you mean my entire family and a good portion of my friends, then... yes, I reckon you've a point. ;-P Luckily, I don't consider myself amongst that group. I am quite in control of my own mind, Mr Corner. Oh?
Not the kind that involve revising for NEWTs, Paddie.
And I'm to believe you wouldn't do the same for the sake of revising?
Oi, you didn't tell me you had a list! Seems I'm lucky bloke, indeed then. A lucky bloke that's still waiting on a confirmation. I bloody know that and well, Ms Patil. You'll have to agree to find out.
I would never use your love in that way, Mike. It is much too important to me.
...you do know I've never done this before, right? Lied to my parents outright and then met you, my boyfriend, at someone else's flat after telling him I'd sleep with him no less... I don't even know what Marietta would say to all of this. You've had it all along. I'll be there, Mike.
Right. Never would, yeah? And I quote, "Not even for my sake?". Face it. You're no better than I am, love.
Never? I reckoned it was the sort of something you ruddy did all the time. You've spared me the chore of having to approach those other blokes. I'll buy you a present to commemorate the occasion, then. Marietta wouldn't say much, I reckon. She's recently had her garden tended to. I'm waiting. Try not to make this impatient prat wait too long, yeah?
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Right.
I don't want you taking any risks if you're not ready. Never expected you to.
If it's that difficult for you, I don't understand why you're trying at all.
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Maybe because there's nowhere else where I can take risks like this yet feel safe. Just with you.
Maybe because I care about you, and am trying my best to make you happy.
Maybe because I'm starting to realise how ridiculously short and- senseless, even- this life can be, what with Death Eaters terrorising us at every moment.
Maybe because I'm trying to grow as a person. And I understand that doesn't come without hardship.
Maybe because I'm starting to realise that my parents' hold on me has been a hindrance all along. And I'm just... trying to break free.
Maybe I'm just so bloody damned sick of my PADMA LOGIC I could just scream. All I want anymore is you. Just you. Merlin.
And this- this doesn't even make any bloody sense anymore.
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You love me? You sure?
Right. Now I feel a right arse for earlier.
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I've been telling you for months, actually. Whilst you were pissed or asleep.
I'm as sure of that as I've been of anything, Mike.
So do I. And vulnerable and exhausted. Yet... hopeful too. I want to feel hopeful.
Because I trust you.
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I've been wanting to say that a while here. A long while. And it feels bloody good to say it finally, relief even.
Scares me, though.
I've never wanted anyone as much as I want you. That scares me. You scare me.
I've never wanted to be more bloody terrified.
I love you.
Bloody Merlin, I wish I could tell you in person. I wish I could show you in person.
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I've been staring at this for awhile. I'm... speechless. I'm bloody speechless.
I love you.
I want to be with you.
Mike.
...I want to... be with you.
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Reckon I'm the one who's speechless now.
You sure? If you're not, no worries. I love you. But if you are, that's - that's brilliant, that is.
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Can't ruddy explain beyond that. I love you. Reckon that's all I need to understand.
I think... I think I'm ready.
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You free now?
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I could meet you somewhere if you like. Don't know if you're interested in desert or the like. Reckon we need time to revise a bit, yeah?
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You are a horrid and incorrigible young boy, have I told you this?
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And you are a tease, Miss Prefect.
What are you doing tomorrow?
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I do believe I have already admitted so much to you.
Languishing in my desire to see you, why?
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Was hoping you'd admit it again.
See, I haven't taken a fancy to sitting around Marietta's flat all day and the antsy bloke I am, I've a thing or two I can't wait any longer to tell you in person. Reckon I could steal you away for a bit?
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And why should I do such a thing?
It's not stealing if I come willingly, Mike. Reckon... reckon I could
lietell my parents Marietta is giving me advise on NEWTs, as she performed so well, after all... Merlin. And no rowing this time?no subject
Because you love me.
I'm disappointed, Padma. Resorting to lying? Reckon some would call me a poor influence. Rowing's not what I had in mind, no.
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Why, Mike. Using my love for you as a weapon against me? *pouts*
If by some, you mean my entire family and a good portion of my friends, then... yes, I reckon you've a point. ;-P Luckily, I don't consider myself amongst that group. I am quite in control of my own mind, Mr Corner. Oh?
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And I'm to believe you wouldn't do the same for the sake of revising?
Oi, you didn't tell me you had a list! Seems I'm lucky bloke, indeed then. A lucky bloke that's still waiting on a confirmation. I bloody know that and well, Ms Patil. You'll have to agree to find out.
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I would never use your love in that way, Mike. It is much too important to me.
...you do know I've never done this before, right? Lied to my parents outright and then met you, my boyfriend, at someone else's flat after telling him I'd sleep with him no less... I don't even know what Marietta would say to all of this. You've had it all along. I'll be there, Mike.
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Never? I reckoned it was the sort of something you ruddy did all the time. You've spared me the chore of having to approach those other blokes. I'll buy you a present to commemorate the occasion, then. Marietta wouldn't say much, I reckon. She's recently had her garden tended to. I'm waiting. Try not to make this impatient prat wait too long, yeah?