Why do you say that, Mike? How is it that someone who is so wonderful- and appears so confident- can have such low self-esteem? What is it that I can do to prove to you otherwise? Good Merlin, Mike; this isn't because I've not- slept with you yet?
I- thought you- possibly- meant about- Pansy, yeah.
I was taking the mickey, but if you want to prove it, I'll not stop you. Reckon we could come up with something worthwhile if we put our heads together.
Reckon mine are as well. But- I do always aim to please you, Mr Corner.
...oh. Just- I know how important it is to you, Mike (and it's important to me as well, I bloody promise,) and I know- you must miss it, and- it was a hunch. Because- I often find it easy to- assume that I'm the only one in our relationship that's- scared and uncertain, but- I know that's not true, Mike. I know- I can scare you too, and I promise- I try not to. And... buggering hell, I'll be stop now.
Just- sometimes when I- or anybody, really- doesn't understand you on first go- you tend to just- drop it. Just a silly obervation, Mike, pay it no mind. Too ruddy thoughtful tonight or something.
Likewise, Miss Patil. And I haven't been disappointed yet.
I wasn't even thinking about it, Padma. Not when I was writing that, anyroad, but I'm thinking about it now. I'm curious - what about it do you think I miss?
Reckon I don't care to explain myself, is all. That makes my standards high?
Too thoughtful tonight, too distracted last night. You sure you're okay?
You... why you... You do this deliberately, don't you? How do you expect me to answer that? Other than- I know your- I know you- I know you have a- specific arousal, which must be- satisfied. Right.
I'd say so. Who do you answer to, then? Or at least- owe any mutual allegiance to?
...I'm waiting to hear back from Parvati on something, that's all. Don't concern yourself, please.
Do what deliberately? Wasn't me who brought the subject up to begin with, love.
My todger. Right. The whole itch needing to be scratched bit again. If I'm being honest, I miss that, yeah, but I can satisfy myself well enough on my own; I've told you as much. And believe it or not, that's not all there is to it, Padma. It's not even one of the top thre two things I miss most, if you care to know.
Yeah? I thought it made me lazy. What're you on about who do I answer to? Aren't we all accountable for our own actions?
Expertise has nothing to do with it, Padma. I thought you said you thought about it yourself?
All of it. Touching, tasting, the sensations, being with someone you love, the charged energy when you can't get enough of each other. The smell. I reckon it's one of the most honest acts you can ever partake; there's no hiding intention or emotion, it's all ruddy laid out there and sometimes - sometimes people need that sort of honesty. S'pose that's what I miss most. Reckon it's also what I miss least, if that makes any sense.
We may belong to a community, but ultimately our choices are our own and we're the ones who have to live with them. The community's not going to save to you if you don't want to be saved. Didn't we have a similar discussion a few months ago?
What'd you want me to say? You told me not to concern myself with it. I've already asked several times if you're alright and you've brushed me off. I figured that if I asked if everything was alright with your sister, you'd do the same again. Do you want me to ask?
I- think about it, yeah, but I don't really know what I'm talking about. Which is odd- for me- I usually feel fairly- learned.
Right. But Mike, even though we haven't- actually gone that far, what I mean to say is- you do evoke those emotions in me. When we kiss, when we touch- I can't keep track of my thoughts, and I feel this odd- tingle from time to time, and I love you so much- yeah. I just figured I ought to let you know.
...why would you say that- that's the most honest act one can partake in? And no- I reckon I don't understand how it can be both at the same time. Perhaps I- should understand. I know that when- we're together, like on our anniversary, being with each other- I feel terrified and excited at the same time. It's- intense, Mike.
I reckon we might have but obviously, you didn't pay heed to me, so we must have it again. And ultimately- I wish you realised how important you are- to yourself and the community. I wish you would allow me to save you, Mike.
You're- you're right, and that's why I crossed it out, and- I'm sorry. It's not your place, and I don't want to put undue stress on you. It's just- Parvati, and sisterly tensions, I suppose. ...I hope she's alright. I pray she is- those Gryffindors and their hero complexes, yeah?
I think you should trust yourself more. What do you think it is, then?
I love you too. Odd tingle, you say? Only from time to time?
Well, I reckon it's because you're naked - not in just the physical sense but I reckon that part lends a hand to it some, sure - but when you're with someone like that, you can't hide your motivation or your feelings. It's honest because it gives you no choice. You've no jokes to hide behind, no blushes, no hair, no words. It is what it is and you can't bloody fake your way through it.
I wasn't thinking of it like that, but I reckon it could be, yeah. It's intense for me as well, Padma. You've no ruddy idea.
You plan on swaying me to agree with you on everything? That's one hell of a challenge, that is. Right. Not as important as you. What is it exactly I need saving from?
No apologies, Padma. You're not putting undue stress on me. This is all part of the deal we signed on for, right?
I don't quite follow you. Did she do something dangerous or what?
Well... to which one are you even referring? Sex- a shag, a simple act? Or... being intimate? Making love, I suppose.
Well- yes. I reckon- I suppose- maybe it's... arousal. Bloody hell. It's... when you've touched me for awhile. A- combination, I suppose, of your lips, your hands, your body... Merlin.
...right. That's what- for me, anyway- always made the idea of it seem- serious. Sacred. It's- the ultimate closeness I can give, to take- to take you-
Somehow, I reckon I might.
...why do you always say that, Mike? What makes me so much more ruddy important than you? Perhaps from your low opinion of yourself, for starters.
We did? I mean- you'll tell me- if it's ever too much?
...no, not really. Though, her close proximity to- people like Harry Potter- worries me, sometimes. But really, my- issue with her has little to do with that.
I think- I know- we're being intimate. And I think- I don't know much about the physical act, but- if it's anything like what we've been doing, it's- an overflow of emotions. As- I feel you around me, loving me, and- I hope you feel that way too. And then... we just let go.
...yes, Mike. Yes, I like it.
And Mike. I want to share that with you, too. I really- truly- do.
But I love you. Doesn't that count for something? I'm just reporting what I witness, Mr Corner. Perhaps you've a rare case.
Sometimes- yes. Sometimes I think you'd- sacrifice too much for me.
We've not been getting along, and I miss her; that's the cusp of it.
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Reckon it's been tough on all of us, given- recent developments.
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...secrets are detrimental, aren't they.
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Some, yeah. Learned my lesson well there, I did. Ruddy thankful though that it wasn't as detrimental as it could have been.
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What do you mean?
Do you- oh.no subject
This summer. Actually, a sight before then as well if I'm to be truthful.
What did you think I meant?
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Good Merlin, Mike; this isn't because I've not- slept with you yet?I- thought you- possibly- meant about- Pansy, yeah.
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How do you reckon?
I did.
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Have I snogged you properly today? Or are you looking for something more- original?
Right, then.
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I'm not one to turn down a proper snog, but how creative are you feeling? Think you're up to task to pull double duty?
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Right then. I was going to ask how you equated low self-esteem to you not sleeping with me, but it does't ruddy matter.
High standards? What do you mean?
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...oh. Just- I know how important it is to you, Mike (and it's important to me as well, I bloody promise,) and I know- you must miss it, and- it was a hunch. Because- I often find it easy to- assume that I'm the only one in our relationship that's- scared and uncertain, but- I know that's not true, Mike. I know- I can scare you too, and I promise- I try not to. And... buggering hell, I'll be stop now.
Just- sometimes when I- or anybody, really- doesn't understand you on first go- you tend to just- drop it. Just a silly obervation, Mike, pay it no mind. Too ruddy thoughtful tonight or something.
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I wasn't even thinking about it, Padma. Not when I was writing that, anyroad, but I'm thinking about it now. I'm curious - what about it do you think I miss?
Reckon I don't care to explain myself, is all. That makes my standards high?
Too thoughtful tonight, too distracted last night. You sure you're okay?
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You... why you... You do this deliberately, don't you? How do you expect me to answer that? Other than- I know your- I know you- I know you have a- specific arousal, which must be- satisfied. Right.
I'd say so. Who do you answer to, then? Or at least- owe any mutual allegiance to?
...I'm waiting to hear back from Parvati on something, that's all. Don't concern yourself, please.
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Do what deliberately? Wasn't me who brought the subject up to begin with, love.
My todger. Right. The whole itch needing to be scratched bit again. If I'm being honest, I miss that, yeah, but I can satisfy myself well enough on my own; I've told you as much. And believe it or not, that's not all there is to it, Padma. It's not even one of the top
thretwo things I miss most, if you care to know.Yeah? I thought it made me lazy. What're you on about who do I answer to? Aren't we all accountable for our own actions?
Alright then.
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Right, but- you ask me difficult questions, well beyond my- expertise.
...what is it you miss most, then, Mike?
We are, but aren't we also members of a community? Beholden to people who care about us and want to know us?
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All of it. Touching, tasting, the sensations, being with someone you love, the charged energy when you can't get enough of each other. The smell. I reckon it's one of the most honest acts you can ever partake; there's no hiding intention or emotion, it's all ruddy laid out there and sometimes - sometimes people need that sort of honesty. S'pose that's what I miss most. Reckon it's also what I miss least, if that makes any sense.
We may belong to a community, but ultimately our choices are our own and we're the ones who have to live with them. The community's not going to save to you if you don't want to be saved. Didn't we have a similar discussion a few months ago?
What'd you want me to say? You told me not to concern myself with it. I've already asked several times if you're alright and you've brushed me off. I figured that if I asked if everything was alright with your sister, you'd do the same again. Do you want me to ask?
Is everything alright with Parvati?
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Right. But Mike, even though we haven't- actually gone that far, what I mean to say is- you do evoke those emotions in me. When we kiss, when we touch- I can't keep track of my thoughts, and I feel this odd- tingle from time to time, and I love you so much- yeah. I just figured I ought to let you know.
...why would you say that- that's the most honest act one can partake in? And no- I reckon I don't understand how it can be both at the same time. Perhaps I- should understand. I know that when- we're together, like on our anniversary, being with each other- I feel terrified and excited at the same time. It's- intense, Mike.
I reckon we might have but obviously, you didn't pay heed to me, so we must have it again. And ultimately- I wish you realised how important you are- to yourself and the community. I wish you would allow me to save you, Mike.
You're- you're right, and that's why I crossed it out, and- I'm sorry. It's not your place, and I don't want to put undue stress on you. It's just- Parvati, and sisterly tensions, I suppose. ...I hope she's alright. I pray she is- those Gryffindors and their hero complexes, yeah?
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I love you too. Odd tingle, you say? Only from time to time?
Well, I reckon it's because you're naked - not in just the physical sense but I reckon that part lends a hand to it some, sure - but when you're with someone like that, you can't hide your motivation or your feelings. It's honest because it gives you no choice. You've no jokes to hide behind, no blushes, no hair, no words. It is what it is and you can't bloody fake your way through it.
I wasn't thinking of it like that, but I reckon it could be, yeah. It's intense for me as well, Padma. You've no ruddy idea.
You plan on swaying me to agree with you on everything? That's one hell of a challenge, that is. Right. Not as important as you. What is it exactly I need saving from?
No apologies, Padma. You're not putting undue stress on me. This is all part of the deal we signed on for, right?
I don't quite follow you. Did she do something dangerous or what?
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Well- yes. I reckon- I suppose- maybe it's... arousal. Bloody hell. It's... when you've touched me for awhile. A- combination, I suppose, of your lips, your hands, your body... Merlin.
...right. That's what- for me, anyway- always made the idea of it seem- serious. Sacred. It's- the ultimate closeness I can give, to take- to take you-
Somehow, I reckon I might.
...why do you always say that, Mike? What makes me so much more ruddy important than you? Perhaps from your low opinion of yourself, for starters.
We did? I mean- you'll tell me- if it's ever too much?
...no, not really. Though, her close proximity to- people like Harry Potter- worries me, sometimes. But really, my- issue with her has little to do with that.
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Do you like it?
That's what I want to share with you.
I love you, that's what. Thought it were impossible for people with Swollen Head Syndrome to have low opinions of themselves.
Do you think I wouldn't?
Reckon it's good thing then she's not as close to him as Hermione or Weasley are. Or Ginny, for that matter. What is your issue then?
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...yes, Mike. Yes, I like it.
And Mike. I want to share that with you, too. I really- truly- do.
But I love you. Doesn't that count for something? I'm just reporting what I witness, Mr Corner. Perhaps you've a rare case.
Sometimes- yes. Sometimes I think you'd- sacrifice too much for me.
We've not been getting along, and I miss her; that's the cusp of it.