IO to Padma ONLY

[mc_mike]

I don't reckon Terry's told anyone else, but he asked Tony, Finnigan, and I to attend his grandparents' funeral Thursday. Thought I'd let you know since I'll be missing all morning.




This whole thing is fucked up.

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/_patil_padma/]

Thank you for letting me know. Reckon I'd be a shrieking mess if I didn't know where you got off to.

How are you doing?

[http://users.livejournal.com/mike_corner_/]

I didn't say that, but you're welcome.

Well enough, I s'pose, all things considering. You any better?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_patil_padma/]

Be lying if I said yes, I suppose. I'm so tired of watching the people I love deal with such pain. Terry's always been so enigmatic, and now he's pushing everyone away, not that I blame him. But we all seem to be- floundering, his friends.


I'm glad he hasn't pushed you away, Mike. You're a strong person, and a good mate; you'll help see him through.

[http://users.livejournal.com/mike_corner_/]

I reckon we're all tired of it. Was tired of it before the whole bloody thing started.

He just needs space, Padma, nothing against you, MacDougal, Turpin, or any of us, really. He'll be alright again, you'll see. Been a long struggle, but I'm back to rights, yeah? Best I could be, I reckon. He'll be the same.


Don't know how much good I'll do him, or Tony if we're being honest, but we've to try. Don't be selling yourself short there, though. You've as much to offer as the rest of us, he only needs you at different time, is all.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_patil_padma/]

...I don't know, Mike. I don't think anything can simply- go back, not for any of us. We simply have to forge on, taking more account of what (and whom) we still have.

I'm not selling myself short; I'm just being honest. I know he can't handle Morag and me fretting over him, or Lisa trying to smooth things over too soon. Take my compliment, Mike; I meant it. This is part of what you have to offer him. You're the one who will be realistic, and give him his space. You've so much strength, as I should know, considering how often I take advantage of it.


I was thinking to myself earlier- I haven't even told Terry about my father. Strange time to be thinking about that, yeah? Certainly not the best time to tell him. I guess I was just realising that- well, when trouble touches one so deeply, one tends to try and bottle it up, only letting his or her nearest and dearest in. At least he's still reaching out to his friends, and not just his boyfriend. Reckon I could learn a lot from Terry.


I should let you know that Parvati and I- we talked to our mother over hols, concerning Daddy's business dealings. Merlin, Mike... she knew about them. I'm so so

[http://users.livejournal.com/mike_corner_/]

I didn't mean that they would go back to the way they were pre-all this shite, just that they'd get as close enough as they could considering, is all, just like you said.

All right, I'll take it, just so long as you know that though he might not need you now, when he's finally ready to talk about what happened or needs that extra hand to hold, that's where you'll come in. Tony and I, we're not good for that sort of thing. And you are. You'll be waiting there with soup and a hug, just like you've always been.

You're not taking advantage of anything I don't want to give, Padma.

Reckon we all could, yeah.


Don't. Don't think of apologising for them. That's - bloody hell, Padma, I don't know what the hell it is, but it's - right.

There's been something I've been meaning to tell you as well, yeah.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_patil_padma/]

Seems we're in agreement then, Mikey. I hope he's able to adjust.

You forgot the Pumpkin Juice, you know. Reckon the whole Quidditch team ought to be thanking me.

I know, Mike. But I'm still grateful. Do you have any idea of just how wonderful you truly are?


...you've every reason to despise them now- my parents. They're horrible to you- and now, they're horrible people too. I'm sorry- for getting you mixed up in such affairs, Mike, that's all I mean. I love you so much; I never wanted to bring you to this.

What is it?

[http://users.livejournal.com/mike_corner_/]

Reckon the whole team's going to be expecting it from here on out, yeah.

No, s'pose not, but I reckon I must be doing something right to have you.

You didn't know, Padma. You're not one of them and you didn't ruddy know. Truth is, I wish there was something I could do for you. All this shite you've found out about them, if I could make it untrue, I'd do it. I'd give you your family because that's what you deserve, not this, not what they've bloody gone ahead and done.

Not sure how to start this, but I reckon anywhere's better than nowhere. Tony, Terry, and I, we were thinking on taking a holiday over summer. Got to talking about it that night at the pub before I visited you last week, and I know things are cocked up right now, but if things're still a go when the time comes, we'll be leaving straight from Hogwarts and'll probably be gone for a month or so. Right. Thought you should know.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_patil_padma/]

The things I do for my House pride.

We're both doing something right, then.

...you do give me family, Mike. You give me yourself, your love, your support. You've done all you can and believe me, I wouldn't have gotten far without it. I can't even begin to thank you.


Where will you be going? Will you be s I reckon- you're your own person, Mike, as you remind me on several occasions. I can only wish you the best on this endeavour. But promise me... you'll keep in touch?

[http://users.livejournal.com/mike_corner_/]

I'd like you to have more, is all. Like I said, you deserve it. I love you. I want you to be happy, Padma.

Not sure. Actually, we've not discussed much other than it sounds a bloody fantastic idea. The month's idea's my own. Look, even if Tony and Terry drop out for one reason or another, I'm still going to go. Rather have them along for the company, but it's something I need to do, and whether they're there with me or not isn't the point. You ever have one of those feelings when you intrinsically know that this is something you have to ruddy do, whatever the bloody hell this is? That's what it is for me.

I promise to keep in touch, yeah. You're the only person I'll be missing like mad anyroad. Won't be off finding yourself a respectable wizard while I'm gone, will you?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_patil_padma/]

I want you to be happy too, Mike. I want to give you all I have to give. I love you so much.

Reckon I can understand that. You've always been avid of- adventure, risk, travel. Makes sense you'd want to grasp it at the first possible moment. I hope you'll be able to find what it is you're searching for- but of course, I have faith in you, Mikey.

Hmm. I suppose Rich has moved on to another witch by now. Write me letters from exotic locations, and I promise to consider it.