If I don't think too much about it. I don't know if I made the right decision, mate. I don't know anything. What if me letting go causes him to lose his humanity? It was so hard, but I thought it was the right thing to do. But it makes me hurt to think about it, so I haven't been. Or I've tried not to. I've spent most of the day with the girls. Izzy even fell asleep on my lap at naptime, and Kendra lay her head on Izzy's leg and curled up beside us. We were on the sofa. I didn't want to wake them, and I wanted them near me anyroad. So they slept that way.
There's one other thing I keep trying not to think about today. It hasn't worked much, but I've been trying.
You did what was best for the lot of you, Terry. Know it doesn't feel like it and I know it's shit, but you did. It's not fucking fair though, is it? Doing the right thing and having it hurt the way it does?
I'd fucking love to have another go at that fucker, Crabbe. But I don't want to see his face today, not even if it's to bloody it up.
If you're not busy, I'd be happy to see you. I just put the girls down early. They didn't sleep much last night. Tony and I are here. We were just talking, but we'd be chuffed to have you over. Maybe we can conjure a ruddy punching bag and pound the buggering shite out of it.
Actually, that sounds right appealing, if you're up for it. It'd be good to hit something.
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Date: 2009-03-17 10:01 pm (UTC)There's one other thing I keep trying not to think about today. It hasn't worked much, but I've been trying.
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Date: 2009-03-17 10:39 pm (UTC)Yeah? What's that?
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Date: 2009-03-17 11:21 pm (UTC)Today's his birthday.
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Date: 2009-03-17 11:27 pm (UTC)You feel like a pint? Or taking it out on something? Or someone? I could do with another go like we'd with Crabbe myself.
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Date: 2009-03-18 12:18 am (UTC)If you're not busy, I'd be happy to see you. I just put the girls down early. They didn't sleep much last night. Tony and I are here. We were just talking, but we'd be chuffed to have you over. Maybe we can conjure a ruddy punching bag and pound the buggering shite out of it.
Actually, that sounds right appealing, if you're up for it. It'd be good to hit something.
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Date: 2009-03-18 12:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-03-18 01:15 am (UTC)